Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Sometimes you just need to vent...

Before I start this I just want to say I have a fabulous life. I have a wonderful husband & great kids. Having said that I will admit that there are things that challenge me from time to time.

One thing that has been a source of frustration lately for me is trying to have a peaceful blended family. Both my husband David & I were married before & we each had two childre coming into our marriage. All four children live with us. Our boys are 11 years old, almost 3 months apart in age, and our girls age 9 are also about three months apart in age. It is really pretty cool, but not without its challenges.
The problem I have been having lately is managing the issues between all the personalities. It can be so difficult. Before I was married I was a single mom for four years. The kids & I were a team. Then all of the sudden after I get remarried a new husband & two more kids moved in. Wow talk about adjustments!!! We will be married three years on May 8th & all the kinks are not quite worked out.

It has been particularly hard on my kids. They went from having me all to myself & their own bedrooms to having to share their bedrooms, & also giving up some coveted mommy time to my husband & two new kids who really were in need of a mom in their lives.

I love my new life, but I would be lying if I didn't admit that some days I mourn the loss of my old life. Things were a bit more simple. I only had to answer to myself. There was no other parent that I had to consult before making decisions. I didn't have to deal with my kids needing more time with me. I didn't have to worry about being the evil step"monster." I didn't have to figure out how to get four kids to agree on something or anything.
On the flip side I didn't have a fabulous man to share my life with. I didn't have these two additional fabulous little people in my life. I didn't have a house so filled with love & energy I thought my heart could burst.

When I was a kid I used to say I want four kids when I grow up...I guess you should be careful what you wish for...you just might get it!!

I am incredibly blessed & yes... sometimes I am cranky about it.

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Going For Greatness said...

I Sure don't know how you do it!! You manage the household, the kids, being a wife, taxi, chef, maid, Mom to FOUR!! You are more than allowed to VENT now and then! It's the only thing that'll let you keep your sanity!!
Gotta vent and yell to the skies sometimes as to not explode! LOL!

Michelle said...

Oh my... I don't know if I could do it... I have my hands full with two. VENT away girl.... I am glad you are able to balance your frustrations with gratitude and peace... Especially since the teens are coming!